:: Tuesday, June 22, 2004 ::

I have cancelled the tribute show for Jeff. The timing is not right and there are way too many personal issues and battles going on that could influence it in a negative way. This needs to be done the right way for the right reasons. When it is right it will happen. Considering all the circumstances I suspect Jeff does not mind at all. In fact he would have called it off much sooner than I did. I hope people are not too disappointed, but I can only do what I feel is right. I learned a long time ago people are not going to like me for various reasons. So if this is one of those reasons...too bad, I really don't care.

There will be a show someday, and perhaps I'll throw a Visions song in a set occasionally, but rest assured he is not forgotten. There isn't a day that goes by I don't miss him. As long as I'm around no one will forget.

:: Styk 1:44 PM [+] ::
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Just a friendly reminder. People are really very disappointing. I don't think I expect too much out of them...maybe I do.

In case anyone has actually read all of these posts from years past. Jeff had it right...Trust no one. Of course he and I both never could follow our own advice. Not fully. In theory it worked for us. But in reality we cared...too much at times. The sad part is once you completely cut yourself off you have no one, and in reality everyone needs someone. Who we choose to surround ourselves with can make a difference or drag us down. Sometimes we find out later rather than sooner. It's all part of life and damned irritating as well. It sounds so fucking easy but it isn't. At any rate...people suck.

Did I have a point? Not really...but if your thinking then perhaps you'll form your own opinion.

P.S. I am having some "issues" with the benefit show for Jeff. As usual even simple things like this can become completely twisted and fucked up. Will there still be one? Yes there will. Will it be on July 17th? Maybe. Will StykFaktor be playing? Most likely not. My hope is to move it back a couple months so that "personal" issues can be sorted out. That's all I'll say. If I can't do this right for my best friend, then I won't do it at all and if people involved can't do it right, then I don't want them involved. Simple as that.

News will be coming soon.
:: Styk 8:06 PM [+] ::
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Today I ponder life as I have been for sometime. I still have no answers. I know of things I have gone through. Things I am going through. And I even know of some things to come. At times it all seems so fucking surreal. Others it makes perfect sense. There are things you all just don't know and maybe never will. But I can tell you there are reasons. I may not even know all of them but there are.

All I can do is keeping shaking my fist at the sky hoping someday it will all become more clear.
:: Styk 6:34 PM [+] ::
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She doesn't have bad dreams.....


she's just made of plastic.
:: < Tortured > 1:45 PM [+] ::
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All things are fucked...
life slips through wrinkled tired fingers
how can you really be gone?
:: < Tortured > 9:25 AM [+] ::
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