*sigh….seemed like this whole day was like pulling teeth to accomplish anything. I was cranky. Had running around to do. Went to the “old gang” softball gamepicnic. It never was my thing. It still isn’t. I don’t mind the catching up part…the softball I could do without. But I don’t feel like I ever had anything in common with most of them and still don’t. Except for Pat and maybe Lenny. But hey Kathi grew up with all of them so it’s cool. Like my “old gang” would be any better.

The interview went ok with Lily. You would be surprised to know that I may be comfortable on stage but radio is something different for some reason. I dunno…felt weird. Wasn’t nervous …just…out of my element maybe. There was apparently a pause between the questions and my answers. As it turns out it was most likely caused by Lily and I sharing a microphone. No biggie to me. Her questions were fine…mostly the standard ones. I didn’t mind. I was there to promote the upcoming shows and the band…so mission accomplish even if I sounded like an idiot.

Rehearsal was short tonight. Sasha was pooped out from work and performing at the Armageddon Ball. We dicked around trying to finalize the set for Saturday. Thankfully we finally decided just what exactly we’re going to play. LOL I swear if we planned things better we wouldn’t know what the hell to do. Vocals sounded ok…I just found myself wearing out rather quickly tonight. No biggie again for me. I could sing the set in my sleep.

So how about some random thoughts regarding today?…

I can’t find the batteries I bought and that pisses me off.

I got something in my eye for about an hour today. That REALLY pissed me off.

Our washing machine broke. Yay more money I don’t have.

Back to work tomorrow. Still the financial situation has not been discussed. Oh and I’m supposed to sign a non-compete contract. My attitude clearly reads FUCK YOU.

I don’t DO sports yet I found myself wanting to play just to get some much needed exercise. oh well.

I’m tired…not sleepy just tired.

When does it get better? If ever there was a time…now would be it…thank you and please come again.

Someone..I think it was Will said something like “I think this is our year” awhile back. When? Is that the remainder of this year or 2004 cuz I’m SO beyond ready for it to be now. I suppose thats why it hasn’t come. I’m looking for it. But you know what? The other way doesn’t work either.

I am sick of worrying

My stress level is going up and my “comfort” level is going down. Would it be too much to ask to ENJOY life? Oh I forgot this is my life we’re talking about.

screw it…I’m still cranky….later.