One crushing blow after another it seems since..I don’t know months now. Feelings lately due to work. It’s seems I am more expendable than I suspected. It’s coming. But not in that “Your Fired” kind of way. More like I will make you so miserable you want to leave at the point we think we can get by without you kind of way. Oh it’s been fun. I am going between utter pissed off anger, to vengeance, to at times an over whelming sense of failure and feeling like a throw away in almost every aspect of my life. aaargh…

So allow me to vent….Fuck You.

Thanx…

If this is the bottom then I guess it’s up from here…woohoo….otherwise I am seriously fucked because I am finding very little desire to even fight….my total sense of apathy is winning big time….go me.