I want to wake up one day and feel refreshed, satisfied, happy…I want to FEEL. The absolute irony of the timing in my life right now is not lost on me…I can still laugh at it….I’m not happy about it but damn..it is one of those cruel jokes if ever there is one.

I feel a bit lost at sea lately and sometimes I think someone will grab my hand and guide me back in to the shore.

Other times I think no one will…No one can….I have to find my own way back…